Stuff

I have had no desire to get on here and post anything, haha, how's that for an opening?

Things have just been so crazy around here, it's just "that time of year" and so much going on in my life that I can't post about(past experiences with posting the deepest of my heart coming around to stab me in the back because "so and so" perceived what I wrote in the wrong way) so I backed off and have been reflecting.

Which, again, I won't do here.

Currently I'm dealing with a cold that leaves me unable to taste anything, sleepy, and somewhat grouchy, ok a lot grouchy! Ella has a non-stop cough that makes me feel so bad for her, and somewhat annoyed with her(yes I know how wrong that is-but tis the truth!)

I found a project I wanted to work on, fabric bags w/ plastic liners for the kids lunches.
I'm not able to sew, I can sew something together, but the line is crooked and measurements are usually off center. So this project looked fairly simple. I enlisted the help of my mom, who gave me guidance and I went to work, it was coming together and looked similar to the picture on the tutorial until it was completed and it wasn't right.
I continue to try to fix it, adjust, and same result.
fail.
So I get my mom involved in it again and she is currently working on it now, so we'll see what she comes up with.
I love reading craft blogs, looking at tutorials and in my head I can do it.
In reality, I can't.
Frustrating!

Aubrey is on the quest of meeting a million question a day quota.
I try to answer as best as I can and as nicely as I can, but some days I, in exhaustion, cannot answer them.
I love that she is wanting to talk with me, ask me questions, but day after day after day from the moment she gets up to me trying to shut the door before she asks her next hundred in her bedroom, am ready for a break!

Kaylyn is ornery as ever-getting into everything at once to make one giant mess. Quietly, secretly hiding or chewing gum, and acting as innocent as ever when asked if she had any part in any of it.

Ella is battling the cough, and the fact that daily her preschool teachers tell me how wonderful she is. Obedient, helpful, kind, loving, cute-and she knows to turn it on when she walks in that preschool door, and to turn it off when she walks in our home. She has a very tender heart and says sorry immediately after disobeying, if only she could be obedient more at home, but I love that she is on her best behavior away from home, I'd rather have her be naughty to my face than behind my back.

Jaden is going through a phase as well, chewing up food and leaving it in his mouth for hours. I recently discovered this when he is starting to spew it an hour or so after breakfast/snack/lunch/dinner. Doesn't matter what it is, he stores it under his tongue, then releases after he's sucked the life out of it.
Makes.Me.Want.To.Barf.
He is tiny enough without this current phase and I hope it ends soon.
So gross.
We took him to get his haircut the other day and there was quite the handsome little man under the blond mass of hair. I just love his little face, especially when its not spewing food.

Josh is working on a dresser with my dad. They only do a little bit everyday, 3rd shifters don't have much other option, they are so tired but willingly working on this, as one of ours is falling apart, piece by piece. I can't wait until it is finished!

Hard to believe its the last month and a half of the year. It's been a year of ups and downs like always and my constant struggle is God first. The song Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing says it so perfectly
Prone to wander/Lord I feel it/Prone to leave the God I love
Why? Why do I want to leave Him and wander off into things that aren't good for me, that promotes selfishness, etc.?
My prayer and goal is to put Him first daily, to become more like Him, so that others might see Him in me.