Crafting!

I think this is the first time I'm sharing a craft-so I have to admit-I'm nervous. I pour through countless blogs of extremely talented people and drool with jealousy over their creations. I can't remember or find(how does that happen?) where I saw the craft I made, but it started with the Headband Holder over at A girl and a glue gun.

With 3 girls, a small house, my drawer for hair crap was over flowing and I, and especially my husband couldn't stand it anymore.

So I used some leftover wood, Josh put it all together for me, and used the staple gun to get the fabric nice and tight over the wood. I then used the headband holder tutorial and  hot glued the ribbon onto the frame. Next I added some ribbon on the top for all those hair clips we can never find in the drawer and screwed some hooks into the bottom for hair ties, bracelets, and necklaces!

This picture is of the one I did for my niece, so its slightly smaller than the one I made for my girls, and its also chalk full of girly goodies for her birthday today!

W3D1

I-almost-did it! On the second set I had a really hard time and walked for 10-15sec and went right back to it. It still hurts to do it, but I'm more determined than ever to get there and try my hardest with a better attitude about the whole thing.
Praying helps too. Prayer is a part of my everyday life, and originally I didn't even think about praying for this.. so I am. I should've done it in the first place!
He is my strength, when I am weak. I'm weak in a lot of areas. The more  I realize I need Him for everything, and realize it right away-the better I can be.

Science Project

Aubrey brought home her science project today-it will stay with us until spring break is over.

It's a meal worm and pupa.

Yea. This is gross to me. We have a small home, its in a clear tube and where do we put it? She thought it should be on the kitchen  windowsill. Where I can see it when I'm cooking?? NO!
So then I said the bathroom on the shelf, and that seems to be ok for now.

Then why can't I stop thinking about this thing in the tube?? All night, I'm thinking.. is it in there still? Is it going to get out, is it going to EAT ME in my sleep?!?!
 I hate bugs or anything ugly, creepy, crawly.. bluch.
How did I get so lucky to get this thing for a WHOLE WEEK?!

Josh and I were talking about it and I thought Aubrey was in the other room, which she was but close enough to hear even our whispered words, and she caught his.." maybe it will die and we can throw it away..."
She ran in tears streaming, starts to yell at us, sweeps the tube in her arms and covers it like she isn't going to let any harm come to this poor defenseless.. ahem... meal worm...and sobs out the whole."if I don't take care of my meal worm and pupa, feed it every day and write my observations, I'm going to get an "F" I can't let my teacher down, I can't kill this meal worm!!"
Seriously-am I having this conversation? Did she join PETA when I wasn't watching her?
You never go to school just once. You go through it again with each of your children.
Yay.
We have arranged care for this disgusting creature while we are gone for 3 days in MN, I felt ridiculous asking my mom to do this, but she agreed. Amazing!

On another note I am starting week 3 tomorrow-I feel no more excited about this than any other part of this training deal.. we'll see how it goes!

Die Hard...or Stupid?

I vote for stupid.


Headed out to jog in the cold, wind, and rain. Yick. I completed week 2 tonight and will be moving on to week 3. That's where I left off last time. Not for reasons of straight up quitting, just life got in the way and that was it. I'm figuring if I can make it to week 4.. and beyond.. that will be an accomplishment itself. I'm wondering if I'll ever get over feeling miserable during and after every stint. Even though I'm completing the assigned task, I still feel like its beating me. I'm not a competitive person normally, but...
I.want.to.win.

Giving up?

Either I'm a sucker and like the punishment and pain, or I'm a straight up idiot.

I did week 2 day 2 today. It was better than Saturday, so I feel there is hope, but its still so hard. I still want there to be some easy component to it. 

I was asked today how the program was going and how it worked. I know she didn't mean to make me feel three inches tall-but she said when she heard I was doing it, she thought for sure then she could do it too.

Ah great, now I'm the measure of weakness.Sigh. I'm not a prideful person-at least when it comes to self-esteem, I'm the least of these, and I obviously have outward issues, as well as inward, but it still hurts to be known as the "heavy girl" the "one who is slowest" the "one who can't run"  the "crazy lady with 4 kids"
Labels are no fun, so in any circumstance I know I need to press on. I know who I am in Christ, and that is all that should matter.
Looking up and moving forward.

The Death of Jogging.

Week 2. Ugh.

It was not good. I did it, but it sucked. How is it even possible to get to the end  of this program? I'm not sure it is.. for me.
I think I'm doing ok but then while I'm out there I just want to quit. I want to quit and never think about jogging again.
It has to be mind over matter-because my body could do it, painfully, but I was fighting myself the whole time.

I think my question is: If I keep on doing this, will I eventually catch on and get my stride, or will this always be hard for me? Honestly. I want easy. I want to go out there  and do it, and be proud of myself. Instead I feel like a miserably slow overweight person who is insane for trying this in the first place.

It's embarrassing. I think an actual snail passed me today.

Couch to 5K

I started the couch to 5k over again. It's the SS trainer doing workshops for it and so I'm being held accountable. Today was the first day and I was the only one doing the 5k and of course, forgot my stop watch so my SS trainer had to be with me the whole time- it was good in the way that I kept going and didn't give up, but I felt like a LOSER with how slow I am and she was nice enough to not say anything but this is the girl who can run a marathon in under 3 hours. It's been taking me 45 min to do 2 miles. LOSER. The idea at the end of this is to run the mother's day 5k, which I didn't know when i signed up and now that I do know.. I had a nightmare about it. Being last and everyone packing up and leaving, falling, losing my guts on the trail.. not even finishing the workshop to even DO the 5k. Obviously, most of this has got to be a mental hurdle to overcome? I don't want to be a runner, I just want to know that I can run and not feel like I'm going to die. I cheated in all my school years, i NEVER ran the full mile you were required. I hate that fact and I want to change that stigma I have in my head-that I can't run. I have to run two times on my own before next saturday, but my goal is to work out every day, and just incorporate that in.

So there it is. My fear and self-esteem in black and white.