Science Project

Aubrey brought home her science project today-it will stay with us until spring break is over.

It's a meal worm and pupa.

Yea. This is gross to me. We have a small home, its in a clear tube and where do we put it? She thought it should be on the kitchen  windowsill. Where I can see it when I'm cooking?? NO!
So then I said the bathroom on the shelf, and that seems to be ok for now.

Then why can't I stop thinking about this thing in the tube?? All night, I'm thinking.. is it in there still? Is it going to get out, is it going to EAT ME in my sleep?!?!
 I hate bugs or anything ugly, creepy, crawly.. bluch.
How did I get so lucky to get this thing for a WHOLE WEEK?!

Josh and I were talking about it and I thought Aubrey was in the other room, which she was but close enough to hear even our whispered words, and she caught his.." maybe it will die and we can throw it away..."
She ran in tears streaming, starts to yell at us, sweeps the tube in her arms and covers it like she isn't going to let any harm come to this poor defenseless.. ahem... meal worm...and sobs out the whole."if I don't take care of my meal worm and pupa, feed it every day and write my observations, I'm going to get an "F" I can't let my teacher down, I can't kill this meal worm!!"
Seriously-am I having this conversation? Did she join PETA when I wasn't watching her?
You never go to school just once. You go through it again with each of your children.
Yay.
We have arranged care for this disgusting creature while we are gone for 3 days in MN, I felt ridiculous asking my mom to do this, but she agreed. Amazing!

On another note I am starting week 3 tomorrow-I feel no more excited about this than any other part of this training deal.. we'll see how it goes!

Die Hard...or Stupid?

I vote for stupid.


Headed out to jog in the cold, wind, and rain. Yick. I completed week 2 tonight and will be moving on to week 3. That's where I left off last time. Not for reasons of straight up quitting, just life got in the way and that was it. I'm figuring if I can make it to week 4.. and beyond.. that will be an accomplishment itself. I'm wondering if I'll ever get over feeling miserable during and after every stint. Even though I'm completing the assigned task, I still feel like its beating me. I'm not a competitive person normally, but...
I.want.to.win.

Couch to 5K

I started the couch to 5k over again. It's the SS trainer doing workshops for it and so I'm being held accountable. Today was the first day and I was the only one doing the 5k and of course, forgot my stop watch so my SS trainer had to be with me the whole time- it was good in the way that I kept going and didn't give up, but I felt like a LOSER with how slow I am and she was nice enough to not say anything but this is the girl who can run a marathon in under 3 hours. It's been taking me 45 min to do 2 miles. LOSER. The idea at the end of this is to run the mother's day 5k, which I didn't know when i signed up and now that I do know.. I had a nightmare about it. Being last and everyone packing up and leaving, falling, losing my guts on the trail.. not even finishing the workshop to even DO the 5k. Obviously, most of this has got to be a mental hurdle to overcome? I don't want to be a runner, I just want to know that I can run and not feel like I'm going to die. I cheated in all my school years, i NEVER ran the full mile you were required. I hate that fact and I want to change that stigma I have in my head-that I can't run. I have to run two times on my own before next saturday, but my goal is to work out every day, and just incorporate that in.

So there it is. My fear and self-esteem in black and white.

Fall is here

Ok so, once again. I've failed the blog.

Oh well

I'm not all that caught up in it. .but I do think about.. oh.. I'll write about that and then when I try to sit down and do it, someone hit someone else.. the baby is crying and someone else is hungry.. or thirsty.

Right now.. everyone is busy so I'll take advantage of it and if they need me.. tough.
haha

Ok, so soccer has begun and yesterday we got poured on.. it was cold and everyone was wet and so we headed back to the van and thankfully.. everyone had one extra jacket to wear to warm up with.

The next game wasn't until 3 hours later so we all went home this time instead of hanging out at the field. How miserable that would have been! By the next game time it had dried up considerably but we still left the rest of the kids home with my parents and just took Kaylyn to her game.

Our whole team showed up but the other team looked a little sparse and it was game time. They needed two players and so Josh decided to send over Kaylyn(thinking it'd only be fair) and the asst coach also sent his daughter over. So it was very odd to cheer for our team.. and your kid.. on the opposite team. Thankfully its only kindergarten ball.. it really doesn't matter who wins. They're still learning and figuring out how to play.. they run in mobs around the ball anyways. .it never gets anywhere. Well.. apparently one little boy on the other team had played before. He knew to get the ball.. take it straight to the goal.. and score. And so he did.. over.. and over.. and over. I think thats great for him.. though 2 things bugged me badly about this..

1. A parent from that team was a couple people down from me and every time the lil guy scored. .the man yelled. GOAL!!! heh heh heh.. in the most annoying fashion that I was tempted to yell SHUT UP heh heh heh
Ok, I would've never actually done that.. I have no spine when it comes to things like that but really.. do you have to do that. .in that annoying voice? cmonnnnnnnnn

and
2. The coach never took the lil guy off of the field or switched him positions. He did eventually tire out and I think thats just too bad for him. He is a great player and he isnt' being nurtured in other positions or seeing that there is a whole team here.. he's not the star. .ok.. he was.. but you know what I mean? Besides the facts that its the rules( and the refs were 9th graders and Josh, although mad, didn't make a big deal of it) to switch the kids and rotate them, its just good sportsmanship to let everybody play, have a chance and when you've creamed the other team in points.. why must you continue to play him?

Ok, so its kindergarten ball and I shouldn't be all that annoyed but I was and this is what annoys me about sports. The need by others to win, at all costs, and pretend to be oblivious to rules or even remotely have good sportsmanship.

enough ranting .. for now. .ha


Soccer is kind of the life right now, we have awana that also fills the week and various other school activities. I can't imagine what it will be like when they are all in school and each having their things to do and go to.

I've been working on a couch to 5k running program. I'm struggling with this week 3 and will be redoing it. There is skepticism on redoing a week but I really feel my body could use a repeat.. I'm not sure I really want to run a 5k.. I haven't enjoyed the running thing at all. But I have to say I'm amazed at how I've progressed. I have so much work to do with my weight that its frustrating but I'm pressing on.. someday I will get ahead of this. I dont' know if I'll ever 'beat it' but I will be working on that for sure.

Last but not least its that time of year.. Aubrey's birthday and figuring out costumes for the 4 children now and I have no idea whatsoever for any of them. I really need to get working on that! I also need to figure out where, what, and who for Aubrey's birthday but that is slow in coming as well. sighhhh.. 4 kids is a LOT of work but I love 'em.